Thursday, February 14, 2008
VaLeNtiNe'S dAy...
Firstly.. Happy Valentine's Day to all the people who are attached!! may you all be tgt happily ever after!! to those who are in the mist of going after someone or being going after.. may the love blossom!!! To those who are single and got no direction in love.. please do not be sad!! Happy frdship day!!! Lastly.. to those who heart is wasted.. i am sure u will find the right one soon...
Not a good valentine's day.. at least.. because i got to study for quiz today!! and the quiz sucks.. maths is like getting more and more difficult each day.. damn it.. my most confident modules le.. sianz.. and oso lack of slp..
Last night slp at 6 in the morning.. damn shag.. was coordinating the cheerleading guys to give flowers to the cheerleading gals.. at 12midnight.. oh well.. quite wu liao actualli.. just go ard giving flowers.. and sing Daniel Chan's duet song "Wo Hui Song Ni Hong Se Mei Gui".. onli this line nia.. haha.. den took photos lo.. after which i have to stay to help out in blowing balloons and writing notes for the 18th JCRC.. we planned to tied one balloon outside each resident's room to let them know Valentine's Day is coming.. i helped until 2plus before i went up to study for maths quiz.. den study until 4 plus.. went down to help to tie the balloon.. well.. i cldnt realli got the mood to study la..
i tied until 5 den i went back again.. then at ard 5.30am.. i decided that i shall stick the present that i bought for her on the balloon outside her room.. its just a small gift that i saw in our Joint Hall Bazaar.. nothing fantastic.. actualli i din intend to buy de.. cos.. nothing gd caught my eyes while i was walking ard JP..
Well.. it just get tired.. when after the things that i did.. i still cant realli be a veri gd frd to her.. haiz.. sometimes i just feel veri veri silly.. like her yet don dare to show.. like her yet don dare to grab any chance that comes along.. like her yet i can onli stay at a distance away protecting and looking after her.. like her yet no confidence.. like her... it just gets quite xing ku as days went by when u just like her more and more each day.. the small small things that she did.. its enuf to make me feel happy.. despite all this.. i have to keep on surpressing my own feelings.. surpress until i feel abit numb alreadi.. surpress till even if i feel sad.. i can still laugh it off..
Another matter.. the senior who hated me because he thought i am his love rivals.. finally know who i actualli like.. being wronged for so long.. going through all the shit.. going through all the misunderstandings.. despite all this.. i din wan to explain myself even though the feeling sucks.. i just feel that even if i explain myself.. he wont understand.. if not.. he wont misunderstood me in the very first place.. maybe she heard things related to this.. i just hope she wont think that i am liking another gal.. but in actual fact.. the person i like is her..
I dunno how the senior get to know who i like.. i think its through my blog ba.. that time i heard that he found my blog.. oh well.. in a sense its gd oso la. since others cant realli manage to persuade him.. anyway.. Yu Guo Tian Qing Jiu Hao.. i wont blame anyone de la..
Lastly.. i am a happy guy!!! she thanked me for the present.. and i am so so happy.. ha.. though its just a thank you and its over msn.. i am content enough..
Perhaps i am thinking way too much.. i feel that she likes my GL.. cos they always do things tgt.. i definitely is sad la.. but.. well.. my GL is a gd guy.. and he definitely got better criteria than me.. i just wish her happiness if they are realli have feelings for each other..
Without hope or agenda,
My heart will always love you..
Wishing you happiness..
When you are sad,
And cant find anyone else,
Look behind you..
Trust me,
You will find me,
Right at the back..
As long as,
You are safe and sound..
And most importantly,
you are happy..
Everything else does not matter..
Once again.. Happy Valentine's Day to you.. hope you like the hp accessories that i bought for you!!
NiKe_bOi
7:58 PM
